Like a Can Opener in a Worm Factory

on porn, queer and feminism

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 14:00:45 GMT

If you're interested in the talk I did last night, or were there and are interested in whjat the plan actually was, it's up on Ballad of dissatisfaction here. Page is SFW, links (obviously) NSFW. If you cd comment there not here I would be very happy indeed...

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WTF WORLD??

Mon, 10 Jan 2011 20:37:38 GMT

( cut for ED trigger warnings )That's enough to screw with a person's brain - and,more to the point,metabolism, triggering starvation mode and ensuring the minimisation of any weight loss, as well as impairing brain function. WHAT THE FUCK, IN TERMS OF AWARENESS-RAISING, CONTRADICTION, BOYCOTTING ETC, CAN WE DO?

Suggestions please. Goblin is FUCKING ANGRY.

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who's with me?

Thu, 11 Nov 2010 08:53:26 GMT

queer cabaret this sat yay!

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YES

Wed, 03 Nov 2010 18:45:44 GMT

http://tuxmann.blogspot.com/2006/02/

(TRIGGERS)

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update to previous

Tue, 02 Nov 2010 18:46:51 GMT

1) I LOVE YOU ALL, for being caring and supportive and generally just fucking wonderful. I don't know what I'd do without you, i really don't. Thank you so much to everyone who commented or texted - you did *so much* to help restore something approaching sanity, so thank you.

2) Spoke to managers/landlord's agents - it's them that demanded compensation for last time, and are being cagey about putting things in writing; i don't even know who the landlords are, given that my contracts are signed 'on behalf of Hockley Lodge Ltd' and nobody except old people's homes in Ireland come up when i google that.. Anyway, they said they sent their plumber in yesterday (while I was out, and without telling me: are they allowed to do that??) and apparently my shower door leaks, or doesn't fit properly, or something (I noticed that before, but as I hardly ever use the shower, seemed little point in kicking up a fuss about it; certainly the floor always does seem to get very wet when anyone showers) so they claim the leak did come from my flat. They're sending another plumber in tomorrow or thursday to sort it out. Am a bit confused over previous tenant's compensation claim, as they're claiming 160 for a nintendo console plus a game, which Grace who knows all tells me is way over the odds. (Also, contents insurance? I have insurance now, too! might that cover it? Am i still liable if they don't have any?) Eep. They weren't blaming me in a nasty way, tho, yet...

3) Just ftr, because I don't want false sympathy, I'm pretty sure I don't have an ongoing anxiety disorder. I do have a very strong trauma/stress overdrive response which is apparently common for people in/coming out of abusive/traumatic/destablisising situations or relationships, and i'm officially mildly anxious and mildly depressed, but certainly not in any kind of day-to-day debilitating sense, and it'd be denigraing the bravery of those of you who do have such things to claim I suffer at any equivalent level.

4) did i mention i loved you all? xxx

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COOL QUEER EVENT

Fri, 29 Oct 2010 22:59:27 GMT

somebody come to this with me?? it looks awesome, has queer cabaret and all sorts, and the queer performance artist i met today is involved w/ running it, kinda..

*puppy eyes*

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OH MY GOD SO FUCKING ANGRY (and also quite upset)

Wed, 27 Oct 2010 19:01:10 GMT

With the police (for failing to talk to each other, keeping me waiting 3 hrs, telling me contradictory things, etc) but mostly with Darren, for accusing me of having Munchausen's syndrome. Since I told him I didn't want to talk to him any more, he's sent me 15 messages (unanswered), 3 phonecalls (unanswered), an email, a facebook message (from his cat!) plus references incl. 'flatten the litle cunt', and 'nothing more offensive than being ignored' on Twitter, all variously threatening, pleading and affectionate, and he accuses me of being unbalanced and lying to manipulate people.

This being the man that told Jim & Joanna outright I'd forbidden him to go tomorrow, told Grace God knows what, lied about a significant number of my friends and their relationships to me, told me at least one of my friends was in love with him, broke into my facebook twice at least, locked me out of fbk and Twitter, told me Tone was convinced I was having an affair with Farren and was pestering him with phonecalls about it, plus a selection of other lies...

PLEASE SOMEBODY, TELL ME I'M NOT MAD AND HA THIS CONSTITUTES UNREASONABLE BEHAVIOUR? I mean, it's not normal, is it, doing all that stuff? I'm not really Munchausen-y?

*headdesk*

please help, i'm doubting my own sanity here. :o( xx

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please please help me -last porn ref for a week, i promise...

Sat, 23 Oct 2010 11:42:44 GMT

if you could talk o me about your experiences of porn here it would make my day...and really help my essay...

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pr0n proofreaders wanted

Thu, 21 Oct 2010 09:42:09 GMT

Dear interwebs, am aiming to have first draft of porn paper ready by next tuesday latest, to edit wed/thur for conf on fri. Is there anybody who'd be willngto read it over between sunday and wednesday (depending on how efficient I am!) and give feedback? Some familiarity with art relating to /the discourses of either feminism or kink preferable but not essential, and tbh i'm struggling to think of anyone on my flist to whom nether of those applies anyway. So, priddy priddy please? email me at sasha underscore garwood at hotmail dot com if for some reason you'd rather not comment in public here!

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Fri, 15 Oct 2010 16:18:07 GMT

HANDED IN ARBELLA, FINALLY. It's only taken since March 2009. Now is anybody around this evening to help me celebrate, albeit in a very slow and gentle way because she's ill?

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zomg

Tue, 05 Oct 2010 17:30:10 GMT

35% of those diagnosed with binge/purge type EDs are male.

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people who may be coming to my/Kaye's Bicon workshop...

Wed, 25 Aug 2010 17:31:53 GMT

,...if you have any bits and pieces we could use for costumes/props etc, silly as you like (swords, canes,mop caps, cloaks, silly boots, you know the drill...) bring'em with? Should enliven proceedings...

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Why Those Boots Ads Piss Me Off

Wed, 16 Jun 2010 23:28:07 GMT

Rantette of the day is over the boots ads with the slogan 'losing weight is the best thing I've ever done', and here is why. Many reasons, see fbk, but quite apart frommy own personal gnarghhh, here's a few:
( cur for possible ED/food triggerage )

And fewer people would feel ugly and like shit.

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just a thought...

Sun, 13 Jun 2010 09:45:38 GMT

plans just fell through, if anyone's around this eve and doing anything interesting or fancies a goblin, text me?

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Books to Read If You Want to Get Inside My Head

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 18:37:50 GMT

For the edification of the few and inexplicable; I'd be absolutely fascinated to hear others' equivalents!

( Long, involved, personal. Don't say I didn't warn you! )

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reviews - for the edificarion of my grandma, among others

Mon, 24 May 2010 17:01:20 GMT

( Ellen Horan, 31 Bond St )( Evie Wyld, After the Fire, A Still Small Voice )( David Nicholls, One Day )

( Rachel Tresize, 16 Shades of Crazy )( Warren Fitzgerald, the Go-Away Bird )( Isabel Allende, Island Beneath the Sea. This one's TLS, so a bit on the Literary side. Or at least pretending. )

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help me people!

Fri, 08 Jan 2010 15:17:43 GMT

i have the lovely Kai, from Sheffield, coming to stay betweeb te 15th and the 20th. She's never left Sheffield before and this is her first visit to London. Might anybody be around to help me entertain her, just in a hanging out chatting, mabe going round camden kinda way? Neither of us have any money, but any suggestions of free Cool Stuff to do would be very welcome. Iknow it's just before Bardcamp,but if i tried to organise a readthrough (i'm still burning to do Women Beware Women! and in fact other things!) would anybody fancy it? When would suit? Might have to be in my tiny garret unless anybody has any other suggestions/offers of places, and i appreciate it's terribly short notice and everyone's probably busy already,but it felt it might be worth asking nevertheless. I've screened comments just in case people don't feel like sharing the intimate details of their social calendars with the world, but will probably unscreen unless requested otherwise - if you might be free, even just in a 'quick cuppa so she can see London isn't just me,the BL and a heap of books' kinda way, that would be marvellous

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I AM A GIANT KILLER ROBOT...

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 09:25:39 GMT

... and the evidence is on youtube here. eriously, anyone with an iphone, buy the application- it's only about 60p and it is the COOLEST THING I'VE EVER SEEN. it *actually does* all the stuff in the ad, and to this day can keep the goblin happily amused for hours. And i can't act and look crap in the ad and am *still* sufficiently convinced of its genius to share witrh you all. Be impressed... :oP

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my ashtray heart

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 21:42:59 GMT

There may shortly be a post entitled My Life in Placebo Lyrics (i had to change the Gloria Record on grounds of emotional sanity). If Brian Molko has never either suffered from or een in a relationship with somebody seriously mentally ill, I will eat any one of my hats, except the genuine Eton topper Sebastian gave me. However, before that, I am going to be proud of having CLEANED MY FUCKING FLAT because it was filthy. I didn't even o to the party I was meant to o to, and in a minute I am going to bed, with the actually very ood book i have to review for the TLS. Hmm.

Is anyone oing to the July Planet Angel?? does anybody want to?

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PSA

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 15:05:37 GMT

Boy and I are breaking up, indefinitely but with nothing ruled out. We still love each other, and good friends is definitely the plan, but he's really not in a mental place where he can handle being in a relationship atm, so it seemed the best thing.

Just wanted you to know. C/s, obv, say if you don't want them unscreened.

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help me hive mind...

Thu, 28 May 2009 12:11:24 GMT

Help me, i need recommendations for places to go out with the Sarahmonster tomorrow night. We just want to dance, are relatively unfussed about types of music. Any thoughts? and anyone up for joining??

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FUCK ME YESSSSS.... :OD

Wed, 27 May 2009 22:53:31 GMT

Dear Sasha,

I wonder if you would be interested in reviewing Blood Royal by Vanora Bennett (Harper Collins), a novel based on the life of Catherine de Valois? I would want a piece of 500-600 words by say June 11 and could send you the book straight away. Let me know what you think.

with best wishes

(TLS literary editor)

FUCK ME. EEEEEEEEE......

...all that and i'm a superlative hand with a root vegetable, too....*

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Dreamwidth bandwagon

Sat, 02 May 2009 19:37:48 GMT

*leaps*

thank you, pogodragon.

crossposting by default

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