i think the thing is that I can write in perect English *anytime*. Using language in that way is a mark of being 'at work'. Vernacular in the sense i use it online in informal situation is - as perdrix states below -a mark both of intimacy and of being relaxed, informal, more openly myself. I use language to differentiate, demarcate and signify spaces, particularly safe spaces, in this case for the expression of various elements of myself I'm desperately insecure about in real life.

'F'rexample' isa good example, actually - it's a construction i use because it reflects how i say the phrase. It's phonetic. It hadn't occurred to me that it wuld be difficult to decipher (which is a failure on my part,i'm sorry, i thought it'd be obvious) because as the above suggests, i *breathe* language. As my eyes scan a text, any text, i'm checking for linguisic signifiers, codes, sounding it out in my head - even when the argot in which something else is written is unfamiliar or comes from a culture i've never experienced, i tend to e pretty goodatworkingut what's going on pretty quickly. Everything from Irvine Welsh to crele poetry. if it's written in English I'll be playing the various different sound options in my head as i go, and given that i *know* you're familiar with how I speak, i'd assumed its phonetic notation would hold no terrors. Erroneously, obviously.

:o( i'm sorry you find it difficult. But by losing the linguistic intimacy i feel i'd lose the psychological intimacy too, and i don't want to do that. :o(