Like a Can Opener in a Worm Factory

*wry* it's not unhelpful,it's lovely to hear, but it's a world away from that inside my head. I'll try to explain? First off, i will never, ever have an hourglass figure. No wide hips and voluptuous curves. It's just not in the genes. I've weighed about a stone more than i do atm, and not acurve in sight. i'll always be little and a bit too boyish. I'mmore curvy if i starve,because then my waist shrinks. I'mjust *not anyof the prescribed womanly shapes, but i'm closest to desirably skinny. Secondly, whilst i appreciae you generally see that, the verbalinformation isreaching me on a much less direct level that the thousands of images of skinny curvy girls i see every single day, everywhere. Imeasure myself against those i see, i can't helpit. 'imustgivethepeoplewhattheywant', and he one shape i'm encouraged to think they want is...the one that involves not eating.
ED moment:i've always found the sentiment 'painfully thin' slightly ridiculous. Flesh weighs you down. Thin is freedom.

does that make any sense? i've left it unscreened for comments from the floor...